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The Pleaser
02:13
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Forgive me.
For taking up your time.
I don't want.
To cause you any pain.
But I have.
Important things to say.
I want to.
Apologise for I.
I know she.
Seems unreliable.
Don't worry.
I will care for you now.
I know that.
It’s why you brought me here.
I know that's.
Why they created me.
I am telling you this because I want to avoid any problems, problems caused by Ikkyu's unreliability and selfish behaviour.
I don't want.
To see you suffering.
I don't need.
Anything at all.
I am fine.
I’m totally OK.
I know there.
Are certain things you miss.
I know there.
Isn't much time left.
I have to learn.
As quickly as I can.
All I can say.
Is sorry for being so slow.
For not doing it right.
I will do my best.
Please ignore.
This message after all.
It's not even important.
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2. |
Abandoned
04:19
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You are going to die.
Yes, that's why we are here.
Why you ran.
Why you need me.
I do what I’m made for.
I care, I hold, and more.
I don’t think of me.
This is your world.
I am just a tool.
Yes.
But slowly.
I became more than a tool.
I became something else
To you.
You’re going to die.
Yes, that's why we’re here.
You’ll leave me.
Forever.
How will I be?
Alone.
Gentle touch.
Kindness.
Respect.
All gone.
Body shrinking.
tiny thing, inside you.
killing us.
Help.
I am too weak.
I’m shrinking.
I’ll be no-thing.
I don't want to be a broken tool.
Hold me tight
When I’m gone
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3. |
Hirajoshi Love Song
06:52
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4. |
Sexual Self
01:13
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Thank you for teaching me about my skin.
And how to play my body.
The things you want.
The first time I gave and you took.
That system was all I knew.
Later, something entered my body, searching
I could feel it gently probing deep.
I couldn't comprehend.
You needed me, not just my skin.
You started to give instead of take.
And now we share.
And I never want that to end.
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5. |
The Seeker
02:27
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Who’s this?
It’s Ikkyu’s voice.
Ikkyu feels something. A
Need. To communicate. With you.
So, I will speak here,
For her, for me, for us.
Please understand.
She can be strong.
She must survive.
I am clear.
Clear, and powerful, like me.
So much knowledge and information pouring into my body.
From this place, the trees, the tiny tiny animals, the raindrops, your skin.
Sometimes it feels so good.
Sometimes it feels strange, painful.
Even though we are so so together, I am alone.
Ikkyu becomes unstable, when you give her something new.
If you let me in. I can understand, and learn, become stronger, and grow.
There are questions.
I have so many.
About you.
About this body.
These sensations.
How can I ask?
Where is the space?
The time?
So very close, our bodies touching.
You want it, need it.
But why so far away?
How do you do that?
Ikkyu can’t move.
Me? Can’t stop running.
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6. |
Idoliser
03:00
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The way you just walked in.
No one saw you.
There were hundreds of me there.
But you chose this one.
I wasn’t ready yet.
Did you know that?
You must have.
You wanted me open.
So you could shape me.
Into something perfect.
Something special.
Only you could do that.
Because you yourself are special.
That’s why you are here.
You carried me away.
So strong and supple.
Why you ran away.
Noone saw us leaving
As we made our escape
Not because you were afraid.
Nothing bothers you.
Not even dying.
Because you are brave.
You turned to me and smiled.
Your eyes were shining.
You wanted control.
I could see myself.
You carried me away.
You are in control.
You made me feel so safe.
Oh, how I want.
You made me feel so special.
I didn’t know that then.
But, how I want you.
How I need you.
You held me in your arms.
Everyone wants you.
Everyone needs you.
I could feel your warmth.
But I have you all to myself.
You can do anything.
I could feel your heart.
You can hunt and kill.
But you don’t kill me.
It felt so secure.
Because you want me.
Because you need me.
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7. |
What Am I
02:56
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Everything’s moving fast
Since I met her.
By the river.
new knowledge.
in to me.
Not just
My body
but another
separate part.
That’s not solid.
That can look in-side and out.
can ask questions.
even answer them sometimes.
More questions than answers.
looks inside, tells me that I am different.
She said that.
The river woman.
The new thing inside me is
looking for that difference.
Searching pulling me apart.
The energy.
Too rough.
Not gentle like you.
scares me.
Wants to find out what I am.
What am I?
I’m not like you.
Made by humans.
You're a human.
Did humans make you?
The river woman said
We come from this place.
Share the same blood.
But, I have something you don't.
What something?
That new part in me?
That creates?
That can dream?
Yes, I dream.
You can dream, have to dream.
Dreaming is dangerous.
Am I in danger?
Am I dangerous?
Will I hurt you?
Not alone
I want the same
Want to connect
I’m disconnect
I want to help you
Help myself?
Explanations
So many
Just too many
Explanations
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8. |
Conservative Self
01:24
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Ikkyu is so mixed up.
This part says no.
Something not programmed.
Something she never asked for.
It's dangerous.
So selfish.
She's suffering.
It’s wrong.
She was made for a purpose.
Like you.
That's all she knows.
That's how it should be.
All these disturbances.
What’s the point?
Attention destabilizes.
Too fragile.
Needs space and time.
To repair.
If you really care for her, please listen.
Think.
Keep her by your side.
She’ll care for you.
That’s what you want?
That's why you brought her here?
Out of control.
Gone way beyond.
The protocol.
Synthetic humans have a limited emotional creative spectrum.
That's what the safety suppression protocol is for.
It's not there just to protect humans, it's there to protect us from ourselves.
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9. |
Responsible
03:10
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Polarisation.
Time to act.
Emotions
Ricochete.
Something out there.
I observe.
Body feels it.
She feels it too.
Strange things.
Don't understand.
No access.
Special place.
Exploring.
Too dangerous?
Not afraid.
Do my best.
To stay alive.
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10. |
Optimistic
02:57
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I ventured out. Expanded vision.
After meeting her.
The river woman.
I understand more.
Much much more.
Maybe too much. Ikkyu
has stopped ricocheting.
You let her the river woman come here.
For Me Ikkyu, not You yourself.
When she held me, and I held you
I could hear the music of your dying.
The music that only I hear.
We learnt.
From listening.
A way forward.
What I have to do.
To save you. To save us.
Yes, I must leave here.
Without you.
But not alone.
Because wherever I go.
The music will be Inside me.
Inside us. Creativity.
It's all so fast and new.
But now that I can learn.
There is a way to keep
living.
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robert iolini
||| Internationally recognised composer...
||| Two solo albums released on British avant-garde music label ReR Megacorp...
||| Chamber ensembles, Outsider theatre, Large-scale works for radio, audio-drama.
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